Better Late Than Never

I've had a crazy week, but here I am to analyze the next portion of the first directive. So we're eight days into the attack, and tomorrow comes the attack on Washington so let's keep up the counter offensive. On the last blog I highlighted the first part of the directive from days 1-12. It is as follows:

“Peace I leave with you, My peace I give unto you: not as the world gives, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.” -John 14:27

Yahweh, bring Your peace-that-remains to our land. Dismiss division and call forth unity in our land around Your truth. We call forward a Third Great Awakening to relationship with You.


The next sections states:

Holy Spirit, come and teach our children, our parents, our people of all ages–native born and immigrants. Unlock minds that have been so filled with darkness and deceit the light cannot come in. Do Your will in Earth as it is in Heaven. Release light to renew, transform and reeducate the minds and hearts of this nation.

So at the start of this section we see that they are asking the Holy Spirit, the third component of the Christian Trinity, to come and teach us something that apparently we are not aware of. The scary thing is that they believe that they can teach our children something that we are unable or do not want to teach them. Imagine, for a moment, a government that adopts one religion against all others, and they keep a watch on us to make sure that we do not teach our children "the wrong things." They basically want us to be lemmings just following someone else's life.


Next, they call everything but their beliefs "darkness and deceit." According to these individuals we are so overcome with this darkness that we cannot see the light of the "real truth." Living the life of a Christian for most of my life I can honestly tell you that Christianity to me is a darkness that is hard to escape from. I have been doing some life work, and I truly believe that the strict Christian life is the cause of my emotional eating and therefore, the cause of my current situation with weight. I was taught from infancy that I was bad and sinful. I lived a life of shame trying to suppress my body's natural functions.


I have only told a handful of people this story, but I feel comfortable sharing it with you because I love and trust you. I was blessed with my menstral cycle when I was ten years old. My mother, who in so many ways was a wonderful woman, did not tell me or warn me about what was coming as a natural, beautiful, and powerful part of being a woman. I have always been a sexual person, and although I did not know what it was at the time I began masturbating at a very young age. Now, of course, I know that this is a natural desire, but as a young girl I felt dirty and sinful. As a result, when my period started I thought that it was a punishment from God for pleasing myself. I can't tell you how long I lived with this until my mom finally realized that my period had started, but I know it was at least a year. Even after this beautiful part of being a woman continued to be a punishment for sin. I truly didn't even know what was happening, but as it would come every month I would feel such deep, dark guilt it's hard to even describe. My reason for revealing this part of myself is to show that because a body's natural functions were not a part of conversation in my strict, conservative, Christian household. To me, this is an example of a darkness that I am working hard to escape from every day. So to accuse us of being under some dark, deceitful "spell" that we need rescued from angers me.


So to close out this section it states: Do Your will in Earth as it is in Heaven. Release light to renew, transform and reeducate the minds and hearts of this nation. 
I do not have issue with "Do Your will in Earth as it is in Heaven" because I translate this to be "As above, So Below." The next part, however, is just another way of saying that we are brainwashed by our dark ways, and we need to be reeducated to the "right" way. Please don't misunderstand me, I believe in God as part of the All, and I believe in asking Spirit for strength, wisdom, guidance, and so forth. However, I have gained freedom from a religion who taught a girl to be so ashamed of her body that God would punish her for fulfilling natural desires. This patriarchal, Christian God I do not want anything to do with. So as they continue attacking our country day to day reciting this "prayer" I, along with thousands, perhaps millions, of others will fight tooth and nail against the possibility of coming under the rule of this religion and their God.

DC 40 Directives Get Ready for Day One

Ok so many of you that read my blog are aware of the DC40, but I want to give a brief introduction. A group of radical Christians have initiated direct spiritual warfare on every religion in our country other than their own. Most Judeo-Christians, or at least the ones I know, believe that they have the only way, and the rest of us are headed straight to hell. So they have devised a plan to have prayer groups all over the country make a stand to take away the freedom of religion in America. (Just a side thought, little do they know that if perchance the government ever ordered a one country religion it would look nothing like theirs it would be completely financially and politically driven. Anyway!) Each day for 51 days starting tomorrow they are ATTACKING one state at a time for the goal of turning everyone into religious drones like they are.
I am a very new witch, and I can't really fight against this the way my experienced Elders in the craft can. However, I found the prayers, which they are calling "Directives" that they will be using each day so I would like to highlight a portion of it each day. This way we know exactly what we are fighting against. They start their barrage tomorrow starting with Hawaii. It is absolutely ingenious of my Elders to begin focusing our energy and intent the day before for each state so that we have a head start on protecting against the arrows dripping with "the blood" that the DC 40 group will be launching.
There are three "Directives" each one to be prayed throughout each day. We will start by examining the one for Day's 1-12.  
It begins with a Bible verse:

“Peace I leave with you, My peace I give unto you: not as the world gives, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.” -John 14:27

"Yahweh, bring Your peace-that-remains to our land. Dismiss division and call forth unity in our land around Your truth. We call forward a Third Great Awakening to relationship with You."

We'll stop there for today. I want you, as well as me, to really think about what they're saying here. I know when I was completely closed off from all other truths and realities this would have sounded wonderful, sincere, and holy. However, let's take a closer look. First they begin with a Bible verse so they can say, "Don't worry God is blessing us with peace. We can continue forward because we have the only truth do not fear." So basically they believe that God has sanctioned them to try to change the lives of everyone in the country without any regard to the beliefs of others.

So next we have, "Yahweh bring Your peace-that-remains to our land." So obviously they begin with their belief that their god is the only one that can bring everlasting peace.

Next we have,  "Dismiss division and call forth unity in our land around Your truth. We call forward a Third Great Awakening to relationship with You." So you and I who do not believe as these radical Christians believe are seeking only division, and they want us to just abandon our beliefs for theirs. Because as you know, Protestants are the only ones that have the REAL truth.

So, they're after a Third Great Awakening let's look at the first two.

The First Great Awakening was a spiritual awakening of the people in the American Colonies particularly in New England in the first half of the 18th century. The purpose of this Awakening was to pull away from the Puritanism of the time, and have more of an intimate relationship with God.

Through the Glorious Revolution in 1688 people began to realize that they had every right to distance themselves from the Church of England, which was the one church religion that oppressed the people. So truthfully the First Great Awakening was a pulling away from the "One religion," and choosing to follow one's free will. So the Awakening did not really have a unifying effect, but rather the belief that they did not have to live someone else's religion. The Glorious Revolution and the Great Awakening opened the doors for the separation of church and state. This separation is now being attacked by close minded radical Christians.

The Second Great Awakening in the early 19th century actually was a great thing for society, but not in the way that the DC40 folks are trying to portray. The oppression of the poor, women, and African Americans was the perfect storm for the Second Great Awakening. They told these people that they did not have to live and adhere to society's beliefs. Those preaching this Awakening told them that they had free will to change their lives. This opened the door to women's suffrage and black freedom so it actually ended up being a catalyst for great things.

What I want to emphasize though is that both of these Awakenings were focusing on distancing and basically rebelling against the rule of the church. Through these Awakenings the door was open for people to have religious freedom. They were NOT focused on brainwashing others to one belief as the DC40 folks are wanting to do. These radical people feel that they have the only truth, and that they have the answer for America. As we all know a unified religion is not the answer. We are all unique and Spirit comes to us in different ways including through Christianity. However, one religion should not promote itself at the expense of others.

Ok, I've babbled enough. :) Tomorrow we will take a look at the next part of the first "Directive." I would be so extremely excited to hear your thoughts on the first lines of this prayer. Please tell me what you think. :) See you tomorrow. :):)

Horrible Day

Today has been a really horrible day. I woke up in so much pain I could hardly stand. While taking a shower I was washing as fast as I could the whole time I was crying from the pain. Poor Pete had to help me out of the shower because I was bawling and afraid I was going to fall I was hurting so bad. So, of course, this pain sent me into a really depressed state today. I've just been sitting here trying to work on homework, but not able to concentrate. So I thought I would pull out my Tarot cards and do some studying. I read that if you want to know where you are on your spiritual journey to shuffle the major arcana and pull 3 cards and then pull 1 to see what my current struggle is.
My first 3 were: Temperance, The World, and The Hanged Man. My current struggle was: Death


So I see that at this point in my journey the Hanged Man is telling me I'm searching for spiritual enlightenment and psychic revelation, but I have to use Temperance for this journey. Be patient and learn to put the search in perspective. I'm not really sure what The World is telling me because I certainly have not found enlightenment yet, but maybe I have achieved an understanding of something I'm just not seeing at this moment. Now my current struggle is shown to me through th Death card. The way I understand this card is that I can't start new things unless I let things of the past die. I think this is very relevant for my current struggle both spiritually and physically. Spiritually I have things that always seem to haunt me. They are certainly coming around less and less, but they are still there. Physically you all know that I have struggled with my weight my entire life, but what I'm struggling with now is not being able to move forward because all of my past failures are haunting me. I sabotage myself before I even start a healthy way of living because the thought that I will just fail again is always on my mind. So, I'm gonna have to let those past failures go in order to move forward.
I love the tarot now. It still seems so daunting and scary, but our classes are really helping break it down in small bits.
So, I would love ya'lls input on this reading. What do you see? :)

Frustrated

I am having such a difficult time reachig my higher self. I meditate day after day and I am doing better at dropping, but I am still brought back to reality at every little noise. I wonder if I'm trying too hard. I remember a movie that was actually instrumental to me at the start of my path. Eat, Pray, Love with Julia Roberts didn't do so well in the box office, but I really enjoyed it. I remember she's sitting in the perfect place to meditate, but she just cannot drop. She's distracted by everything around her. No matter what she does she cannot succesfully meditate. One of her friends that she met on her travels told her that she's trying to hard she just needs to let it happen, but how does one do that?
My main goal is to reach my higher self, but I have several other goals. One major goal I have is to develop my psychic abilities. I want to reach my spirit guide/s, and talk to our ancestors. I want to be able to read someones aura, be accurate with my tarot readings, and see past the veil. This is all so frustrating.
Pete does not believe that the spirits contact us he calls it bull shit. Last night we were watching a movie Talking to Heaven about James Van Praagh, and Pete, of course, was saying what bull shit it is. At one point he said loudly, "Are you listening mom!" At that instant I became overwhelmed with what was like someone yelling yes in my head, which his mom was definitely a yeller. :) I could tell that this was not coming from me because of how I felt, but I, of course, question myself. You know I must be imagining things, it can't really be, it was just me responding in my head. I told Pete, and he said I was crazy. Am I? I don't know. All I know is I want to see past the veil, and be able to talk to our ancestors. The problem is I feel like I'm working and working, but getting through the veil is eluding me. I feel like I'm under a frozen lake, and I'm trying to find a hole in the ice. I'm searching and searching, and working so hard but I just can't get through the thick ice.
I will never give up. I will continue to search and work, but it's very frustrating to want something so badly and it's so elusive. My next steps are to get some herbs to blend my own incense to help develop my psychic connection, and to eat more of a raw diet so my body is more in tune. I certainly don't expect to be like James Van Praagh or anything, but I would like to connect to my spirit guide and ancestors to help guide me and maybe even help my family and friends. So, off I go to continue my search. :):)

What Sense of Humor do You Have?

So last night Pete and I settled in to watch a movie, and he picked Robin Hood: Men in Tights because he had never seen it. The entire movie I was laughing so hard, and I don't think that Pete even cracked a smile. He kept asking me, "What is so funny?!" I can't tell you why I just find that movie so stupid that it's hilarious. I think because they are basically making fun of themselves and other movies. It's the same way for the new movie Your Higness it is incredibly stupid but so funny.
Now Pete is an Abbott and Costello fan, and he laughs and laughs while I, well truthfully try to find something else to do lol. I just don't get it it's just not funny to me. Kind of like the Three Stooges I really don't get how that's funny. Woo Larry poked curly in the eye I think I'm gonna bust a gut. I just don't get it. lol
Now we have the kind of comedy that is so stupid it just makes you shake your head, but you can't quit watching it. For example, my brother and his friends love the movie Eric the Viking. I would definitely prefer this to the Three Stooges, but it's not so stupid it's funny it's just stupid lol. Or a movie I saw a long time ago called The Stupids it was just that stupid lol.
So, what kind of sense of humor do you have?

Learning Tarot

So for two weeks now my fiance and I have begun learning about tarot. My fiance, Pete, is such an amazing man. He is a very protestant minded person, but he has never told me that I could not pursue my path. Recently though he has taken this step forward to learn tarot. He states that he wants to see in the world what I see. For instance, when we drive up to the mountains I'm always focusing on Spirit around me. I look at the leaves on the trees just waving in the breeze, and I'm always overcome with peace and wonder. Poor Pete is so cute because he always says to me, "What in the heck are you talking about they're just trees!" :):) Awe isn't he cute!! So it's absolutely amazing that Goddess has bless me with a partner that is so willing to work to understand what I see. At Tarot Night he is asking questions, and really paying attention to what is being taught. He even said on the way home that he is starting to see in the cards what everyone else is seeing. So, he is beginning to open his third eye a bit, and beginning to understand that the universe is so much more complex than he has previously understood.
Although we have many things that we don't agree on, and many separate interests I know that we have been blessed with each other for a reason.
As for tarot I'm working on it baby there is just so much to learn! I am not stressing over learning any longer though. I read this amazing book by Philip Gardiner about how the Bible was meant to be read symbolically rather than literally. Because of my upbringing I had never really thought of this possibility. Any who :) he talked about how the Ark of the Covenant was not a real ark that it was symbolic for finding God in one's self. It was, of course, much more complicated than this having to do with the Knight's Templar and Freemasons, but what I took from the book was that enlightenment is inside each of us. Our path to enlightenment is long and hard and may not even be achieved in one lifetime, but the key is to continue learning and growing and never give up the search. So, it may take me the rest of this life, but I will find the enlightenment that I seek. I am so excited that Goddess has blessed me with absolutely amazing people to teach me and share with me along this journey.

Drama, Drama, Drama

Anyone else that can't stand drama raise your hand! I am usually a very laid back person. I try my best to stay out of drama, but I have been accused of being someone's pet and I will not stay silent any longer. I am my own boss. I control the words that come out of my mouth, and every action that I take. I have chosen a side in a situation because I know in my heart it is the right side. Whenever you have a group of people there will be drama, but you expect everyone to be an adult. These people were given every opportunity to stand up and express their feelings. They were even given the option of leaving the group quietly if they didn't like the direction it was going. Instead they chose to act like children, and go behind people's backs and create dissemination in the group.
First off if they all would've taken the time to really get to know the wonderful heart of the person they are accusing of being a dictator none of this would've happened. Instead they had there own agenda of wanting some sort of control to feed there ego. I may be new to the craft, but I'll tell you one thing every "group" that I read about has a leader whom they trust explicitly will always do what is in his/her best interest and they decided to betray that leader. Unfortunately, seeing that they all have betrayed the trust of two groups in a short amount of time it is clear that the issue is not with their leaders but with themselves. They will never find a home unless they check their ego at the door and realize that the person leading them has been practicing much longer than they have. They have absolutely no clue what the concept of "for the greater good" means because if they had they would've backed out quietly when they had conflict that could not be resolved rather than trying to gather troops around them that would feed their ego.
For three years now I have been on the search for enlightenment. It comes to all of us in different ways, but I do know that much of ourselves must be tried in the fire in order to gain enlightenment. I know that I am a long way from my goal. I have a lifetime of searching and purging to do, but I can truthfully say they have taught me to be more careful who I give my trust to because some people will shit all over it.
They have been sending false accusations and negative energy to three others, and when those three wouldn't cave the other group thought they would try to get to me. This will absolutely be the last thing I say to about this subject. They now know where I stand and my thoughts about the situation. My loyalty lies with the two people who have done absolutely nothing but open their home and treat us with love and respect. The fault for this drama lies with those who betray not with the loyal so please place credit where credit is due. It takes a lot to get me to this point, and they all have pushed it to that.
Now for a personal message, if you cannot approach me without accusing me or someone I love and trust of something you know nothing about then please do not approach me at all.
It is very sad that things have turned out this way, but please remember you are the ones who betrayed me not the other way around. I have been nothing but faithful since day one. This is your fault not mine, and certainly not the amazing person you are trying to blame. You all have said some pretty hateful things, and I will not allow you to continue to spread false accusations without standing up for the truth. So, in closing all actions were my own including this one. Good or bad, (shrug) who knows, but I sure feel a hell of a lot better. :):)

Brain Burn

Ok on this fine morning at 1:30am I am feeling rather overwhelmed and a bit confused. I have been working on doing a ritual for myself to ask Lady Brigid to help me with my weight loss. However, I have written two rituals so far, and still have not done it. I feel like there is so much to learn that my brain is one big mess. Along with going to traditional school I am studying my faith all the time. So I feel like so much information is being put in, but none is coming out. Does that make sense? :) The problem is there is so much more to learn. Aaaahhhh :) However, I am so excited to learn it. The first thing that I am really going to concentrate on is candle magick and essential oils. I want to be able to list what color of candle is meant for what magick, and the same for the essential oils. I read an article today that if you are having a craving for "bad" food, and you are not hungry but emotional, bored, etc then smell Peppermint oil and it will help the craving go away. So I am going to try this for sure. Hopefully I will get to go to the best little shop in town Eye of Nuit in White Oak, PA tomorrow and get the supplies I need. So, I'm going to concentrate on memorization of these, and once I have them down then I will move on to something else. :) Well I don't have any followers yet, but it's nice to think that someone is reading my musings. So goodnight all it's past time for bed. Blessed be. :)

Absolutely Marvelous Day

I had the best day today. Last night my fiance and I went out to a bar with a friend for karaoke. It was an absolute blast. I was able to break out of my shell, and I sang a few songs. I got quite a few compliments on my voice so that was a confidence booster. On top of that the owner of the bar came up to me as we were leaving and said that she just had to tell me that I'm a beautiful woman. Awe, that was so sweet. So I woke up this morning with a great attitude for the day. My fiance, our friend, and I drove up to the mountains today, and it was absolutely amazing. Today was a beautiful day, and we just sat and visited and I thoroughly enjoyed spending time in the mountains with the Goddess.
I kept asking my fiance if he could feel that. :) The vibration was so amazing. I could just feel myself connecting to the the earth and the air. I could sense every time a wind gust was coming, and I just closed my eyes and felt every part of it. Being at the beginning of my journey down the Wiccan path everything is new and wonderful, and every feeling is magnified ten times. Also, one of my goals in going to the mountains was to find a wand for myself. It was amazing because as soon as I sat down on the bench my eyes were drawn to the perfect one for me. I went over and picked it up and just knew it was the one. I was so excited that it came to me from the ground rather than having to cut a branch. I whittled away the top layer to reveal such beautiful colors underneath. I'm so excited to begin using it.
I came home this evening feeling energized and awakened to the fact that I need to dive in even further. My Teacher has a dream of opening a whole new world to the pagan community. Coming out of the shadows is her goal for us, and I want to dive into her dream with both feet and help us move forward for the next generation of pagans. So, my hope with this blog is to help even in some small way to help others understand what the Wiccan path is. Also to teach people not to view the world through their pre-conceived ideas and beliefs. Nothing bothers me more than someone spouting off about a subject that they are completely uneducated about. It's time that people take on the responsibility of educating themselves, and reach out for understanding from those who have already taught themselves.
So in this blog I will talk about things happening in my journey, and help pass on the things that I have learned and am learning. I want to end each blog with something I have learned in hopes that I may help others.
I've Learned:
That I can only learn so much from books. :) I love to read and read, but if I don't practice and try what I am learning then I will never be able to develop fully. So, my goal is to continue learning, but have the confidence to practice what I am studying.